Tomorrow,going to utama with April and Eric again. Yes. That is the plan. I'm done with gossip girls and 90210. I like gossip girls way better than 90210 as it kinda suck, but heck care. Annie is a bitch. A major biatch! Yes! A bitch, she talks like one, acts like one and even look likes one. Hell of a slut. Anyway, is just a show, so.. whatever. Next, One tree hill, yah I know it is an old show. But I want to watch, will give up if it bores me. =(

I want to go to Port Dickson this coming March! It sounds fun. But will I be able to go? Pray for me please~
Class will be commencing on the 22nd of February. Shit, cause I'm not looking forward to it. Fees is Rm444. Triple 4. Hahaha!

Anyway, this is going to be a random one, really random.

There you go, I've been thinking of what you've done again;
You don't know how sick you make me;
Those thoughts, make me sick right through my stomach;
Every time I think of it, I felt like puking;
You may not think that you do;
But in actual fact, you did, your actions made me puked! and puked! and puked!
Puked till I couldn't pull myself together.
Those that you claimed to have acknowledge;
You didn't do so, running and running around the world while trying to find an end;
But mind you, there is no end as the world is round.
I was thinking of writing you a song or poem;
But again I thought, why should I?
Something that will never be acknowledge;
You make me sick, sick right through;
You're not selfless, you're selfish!
Then again, maybe a letter would be better;
However, I stop and I think again;
Why the hell do I want to waste my time;
The ink and the paper, a stupid piece of paper;
Easily be crumpled, and it will never be perfect anyway;
I'm not bitter or mad;
Neither am I mean or evil;
Just that you had one shot, one opportunity;
To seize everything that you ever wanted,that moment;
Would you capture it? Or just let it slip by you?
You let it slip, and did not even managed to;
Regain the courage to face those consequences;
Coward is the word, you scum bag.
"You better lose yourself from that moment";
Is what you said;
While I answered;
"The soul's escaping through this hole that is gaping";
You've lost your once in a lifetime opportunity;
And after what you've done;
Hope you would be guilty for life
And hope that it haunts you for the eternity of you!

Had 2 days 1 night trip to Genting. Woke up at like 6 plus in the morning on the 1st of February cause had plans with April, XiaoZhi, Eric and Kent to meet the lot in Titiwangsa bus station. Eric reached the station first, follow by me then April then XiaoZhi and finally Kent. Took the 9.30 bus to Genting. After reaching Genting, checked into ThemeParkHotel at 11 or so. The room is small~`With small bathroom. But doesn't matter.

Before entering the room, there is this weird procedure that I, personally hadn't came across. Crab walking into the room (as in walking side ways), then flush the toilet, beat the pillows and all. It is just so weird. Hahaha! Sat in the room for awhile while planning what are we to do. Anyways, ended up, went to Sushi King to have lunch. After lunch, hmmm... we went to Theme park I think. Yah. Anyways, went into Theme park, played a few things there with the lot. April and I went to play crock screw hahaha! However when we played the chair like spinning thingy, I don't know what is it called, I hated it. It spins and spins and spins and gave me a headache. And it felt like the chair is going to be detached from the chain. Scary. Hated it. Never going to play that ever again.

After Theme park, went back into the room to bath and all. After bathing, went and meet up with the couple - Tuck Sen and Lilian. Went to Pizza Hut to have dinner with them. After dinner, linger around First World. The lot take photos. Tons and tons of photos, playing with their camera and so on. After that, continue walking and we passed by Safari. Then we saw there were lots of people, so we have decided to go to Safari. Asked for charges and all. Then we know it was ladies night. Hahaha! Anyways, went back into the hotel room just to change as Kent was wearing shorts, cant go in. After that, go back into Safari. Get drinks, then went to look for a table. After awhile, we changed our seats to the couch. After that, went to the dance floor and the party begins.

Approximately 1 plus, we went out of Safari. We kept laughing. Hmmm.. Laugh till our stomach actually hurts from laughing. Hahaha! Went back to the hotel room, talk talk talk till 4 plus. Blah blah blah~~~ Kent and I went to have buffet breakfast while the other 3 ate cup maggie in the room. Before checking out, took like plenty of pictures. Check it out in facebook. Or, go to April's Blog for some photos.

Enjoy!

A real boring. lifeless and full of shits holiday it is. I'm done watching gong sam kai which is a hong kong show. Currently I'm watching Gossip Girls. Going to Genting in a few days time. On the 1st of February to be exact. 2 days one night trip alongside with
April,XiaoZhi,Eric and Kent.

So let us talk a little about Gossip Girls shall we? I like this particular part. Thought I should share it. When Serena was in trouble with Georgina, as in Georgina tried using Serena's past to blackmail here into doing things that she no longer wants to do and would love to forget about it and proceed with her new life with Dan. After much persuasion from Blair, Serena finally gave in and told her friends, which is her all time best friend, Blair together with her other friends, Nate and Chuck. The three of them sided Serena and went hunting down for Georgina who is a total selfish bitch for blackmailing Serena. Anyways, that is where I am now. What I admire about this particular scene is the unity and the willingness to help each other out despite of their issues with one another, they are willing to put it aside and help Serena out. What great friends they are even though they are in a means of a cold war, however when it comes to serious problems, those arguments or whatsoever were being set aside and focus on the major problems. I do admire it much.

That's about it for the time being. Looking forward to Genting though I've been there like so many times already within half a year. I want to go to Penang!

Update it is. So here it goes. So it has been a few days since the last of my exams. I felt so lifeless you know. Staying at home all day long, sleeping at 3 or 4 in the morning, waking up latest at noon. Watching dramas, so god damn lifeless. I want a car! Rawr! So I can go anywhere without having to worry about transport wise.

I had a dream; It's really funny; I woke up, smiling at myself. Thinking how great it would be if time would have been that way, the way it is in my dream. Thinking back, I still laugh about it. I like the way it seems in that dream, the way our time being spent, the way we communicate, the way it used to be, and the way it will be before all these happens. I saw you, and yes, I miss you, misses everything that has to do with you. However, I know it isn't the same as reality. It would never be the same once again. What is left of you, is this dream of mine, and the memories, which will always be a part of me. You went away, so dishonestly, with nothing, not even a text. Between each smile, there will always be hidden tears; you're the only reason for the tearsdrop on my guitar. The only thing that kept me wishing on a wishing star. What hurt most isn't the words that you've said, it is the post trauma that follows it which causes a scar across the heart.

Regardless of what happen, whatever the truth is, life must be carried on. Therefore, live life to the fullest!

Will always be second-best; never the best of a choice.

There is no update, whatsoever regarding my exams cause, I've practically gave up on my this semester's subject. I have no god damn ability to concentrate at all. Is just so bothering. I'm seriously going to flunk every single subject. Wow! 7 subjects. Why do I even bother doing last minute study while I can't even concentrate on what I'm reading. Is so full of crap. Yes, I give up, it is so distracting and bothering. Whatever, lame excuse, I know that, don't lecture me.

Nothing seems to matter anymore doesn't it? But it does. Every single one of them. Right, people kept saying, forget about it, ignore it, it isn't worth it. It is easier said than done, it is difficult to treat as if it never happened. All these are all farfetched. It certainly never crossed one's mind things would have turned out that way. Right after twilight,whereby it starts to get quiet, everything seems to go wrong. When the sun rose, being awoken with an emotion filled with sadness and disbelieves, heartache and yet helpless, everything is wrong, felt desolate. There were drastic changes, changes that never seemed right and changes that felt awkward. It is easy to tell a person to give up, to ignore, or forget about it, but when you actually come around to doing it, it is a whole lot of a different story. It is never easy to forget about things that matters, neither is it easy to just give up on things that you felt so unfair.

Is true that certain things will get better as the day goes by. By far, it doesn't. It is getting worse. It is like being haunted. Somehow couldn't just sleep in peace. Sleep and watch movies or dramas to avoid all these thought, even then, it just stuck by you, like it is permanent. Exam doesn't felt like exam. Is like, having the "don't feel like doing anything at all" feeling in you and sleep your way through the end of life. Though repeatedly telling,things would definitely be better, but it felt like a lie.Cause at time, when you thought things never matter to you anymore, but in actual fact it does,it will always be with you. Hate the feeling, hate everything to do with it. Wished to get out of here and leave this land pronto cause,who knows how long is it going to take to get over things, and it is definitely affecting life. No doubt about that. For a change, go else where for a new start. Or probably, an accident that would cause the loss of past memories, that would be great isn't it?

P/S: Happy Birthday Ong Khy Li!!!

For those people that doesn't understand English.
Stop being so judgmental.
Don't like it here can just beat it.
Don't comment on things that you know nothing of.
You're not welcome.
Thank you.

The very last of my words are being sent your way;
In a form of a text message;
But again I shall wish you here;
Good luck to you;
And all the best.

Now that you would be here;
Don't disappoint your parents anymore;
Lastly;
Take Care.

I've nothing else to say;
Not that I haven't tried;
Everything has been decided by you;
I've no say to it;
You're selfish;
You care only for yourself;
You aren't what everyone and I thought you were;
Just that others have no idea;
I'm disappointed, Yes I am, Very.
The day will arrive soon;
Whereby I'm too disappointed and I'll just give up;
Then I'll send you a "do as you may" text.
That is all.

I know the truth now

Lol! Life is so crazy. Am still chatting with Richmond and Judy on msn! It's like 2 in the morning. Judy and I were crazy over addictions of foods. It has been such as long time since I last talked to her. Imagine, back when we were both in secondary school (Both from different school) we used to text every single day. We had so much to share, unlimitted topic. How I miss those old times, but now, we had to go our seperate ways, so we talked less, but nevertheless, our friendship remained strong!

As for Richmond. He is so full of crap. Kept insisting on talking to me even though he is so, so, so sleepy. Rubbish right? And guess what, he is wide awake now! Omg! Is just so funny, the trash and things we shared. I miss you so much! I know you missed me too ^^ I know my dear, I know! Bahahahahah!

P/S: Omg! I seriously miss you both so much!

Yah! I reopened it. I want to go on a holiday! And Esther~~ I want Shisha!
Dying to have one. Bahhh!!!!!

Been watching Ugly Betty Season 4. To kill time and for distraction.
Been talking on the phone every night for 3 consecutive days.
My ear hurts now.
Been sleeping for 2 consecutive days and wake up just for lunch and dinner.

However, I'm loving every minute of it ^^

I'm patient, very patient in fact.
But I'm starting to have doubts.
Would this be the end of our friendship?
I hope not. I really hope we can still fool around as before.
I hope~

Finally I went to the doctor!
My voice is getting back on track!

I don't know what to do now.
Who can guide me and assist me?
I'm lost, I've no where to go;
No one to turn to;
I seriously have no idea what I should do.
Why must things be that complicated?
I'm seriously lost.
Happiness never last.
But I shall accept whatever you want.

*Unfair, it may seem, but that's life, and I accept it wholeheartedly*

Hi people, sorry about the emo post this morning;
Was frigging emo, I haven't turned emo YET!
Therefore decided to post something happy happy one hahahaha!
I just came back!
Went and watch avatar. Though it wasn't as fantastic as I've expected it to be;
But anyhow enjoy the company.
Had a little bit of commotion after the movie;
Hope you are feeling alright.

Finally AVATAR is out of my list! Weeeeeee~~~~